Controlled Chaos...I wish

The past week as hase been chaotic, to say the least. I wish it was controlled, but it hasn't been. The funeral for dad was on Wednesday. Many family members came into town. They came from Oregon, Idaho, Utah, Minnesota. It was great to have so much support. I'm just glad everything is over, for the most part. Now just the financial junk to take care of and all of the thank you cards. Today was my first day back at work. I caught a nasty cold in the whole process. Today I don't have much of a voice. I feel much better, though. The funeral went well, or so I'm told. My brother Erik did the life history. My dad's friend Jack gave a talk. My brothers Mike and Bryan and I did most of the music. It was a tough day. Every night since he died I think I'm going to wake up and it will all be a dream. No such luck. Thanks for all of your support.

Time Passing By

My father passed away today. My heart aches in so many ways right now I don't even know how to explain it. Anger, fear, love, regret, hurt...so much. I didn't know how many feelings I could possibly feel in one evening. And it's only begun. As much as he aggrivated me sometimes, I already miss him. Tears will continue to be shed for all that could have been. I'm sorry I didn't tell him I love him more often. I'm sorry for being impatient. I'm sorry for so many things. I just hope he understands and will forgive me for my shortcomings. I love you, Dad.

Working Woman

I started work at my new job today. I am an aid for special education at an elementary school about 5 miles from home. It's only part-time, but better than no-time. I was also asked to head up a tutoring program at a middle school...it's called the homework club. I'm actually getting paid more for that than the aid position. I'm just grateful to have some sort of income. It was a tiring day. I'm ready for bed. But, I must get going on studying for the GRE. Bah humbug.

Last week I went and visited my brother Bryan and his family who live 4 hours away. I would love to upload some pictures of the kids, but I am still unpacking some things. I'll try to do it next time.

Home

Well, I am officially home. I really haven't unpacked yet. I've been busy grouting tile for my brother and mom. My arm is so sore! One was a floor, which I thought was tough. Then I did my mom's shower. Wow, I think I would rather do 3 floors any day over one shower. What a mess! Good experience, though, right?

It's good to be home. I love seeing the neices more often. They are just so darn cute! I'll go visit the ones a few hours away next week.

The job search continues. I have applied for about 4 or 5 jobs and am keeping my open for more.

I miss Rexburg. I miss having my couch to sleep on. This bed at home doesn't like me very much. I woke up continuously last night because my back hurt so much.

By the way, I am COMPLETELY done with my degree. I got an email yesterday stating so. I got an A- in my statistics class. I can't believe that I am actually done....for now. I've been studying for the GRE. What a bummer, eh?